Dreamin

I've been having such weird dreams lately.....

I have nightmares about breastfeeding, and let's just say it never goes well.  I have dreams about being pregnant still and being able to see actual limbs sticking through my belly and never going away.  I have dreams about trying to hold Tristan and never being able to get it right, and so I end up carrying him around by his feet.

I also have incessant dreams about work.  About me trying to go to the temple and a doctor stopping me at the door and handing me and order or a referral to call on immediately.  Or about trying to draw blood and making a huge mess.  Or about picking up a urine sample and realizing there is a hole in the cup and getting it all over myself.  The worst one was where I went into the lab to put away instruments, and discovered someone hadn't cleaned off the circ instruments before autoclaving them, and instead of using water, had used bar-b-q sauce.....so then I had to redo everything.  And then there are the dreams where the phone NEVER stops ringing.

Maybe I just need to get a better night's sleep.  Which, of course, is slightly difficult when you have to pee every 2 hours.  My poor little bladder.  Sadly, Tristan is still breech, which means his large head is up in my ribcage and his fancy feet use my bladder as a springboard.  I keep telling him he should consider flipping over so he doesn't have to have a bunch of doctors do it for him, but he doesn't listen.  I think he tried it once, got kinda stuck and very frustrated, and then kicked me super dang hard for good measure.  So there I was with a very unsightly misshapen belly being attacked by a 4+ lb monster.  Good thing we have the perfect little shirt to take him home from the hospital in.

At least it shouldn't be too much longer now.  I am getting very ancy and excited, mostly about just being done with being pregnant.  A patient and I were consoling each other a couple days back, and we both agreed that the first thing we are going to do after we deliver is lay flat on our stomachs for a whole day.  But I also can't wait to actually hold my baby.  That is going to be amazing.  And then I'll realize he doesn't just go back to the nursery....haha he comes home with me.  Naw, it's going to be a lot of fun being a mommy.